I Can Do This
As A Beautiful, Grounded Yet Worldly Taurean Woman, Change Used To Frighten The Hell Out Of Me. Anytime I Went Through Any Transformation Or Elevation, I Turned Into An Emotional Hellion. I Fought And Resisted Every Step Of The Way. But Somewhere Around My 28th Year On This Planet, I Realized That Change Isn’t Overrated. Change = Transformation. Change Is For Better Or Worse...And Sometimes Worse Is Simply Choosing To Stay The Same.
I Realized That Most Times When I Was Fighting Change, I Was Choosing To Block My Lessons. I Blocked So Many Of My Blessings. I Refused So Many Times To Change My Thinking And My Mindset. But No More.
I’ve Received Many Blessings This Year And Underwent So Many Transformations. Although My Relationship With Isaiah Was Tumultuous, He Did Teach Me A Few Things. I Learned That Even When You’re Struggling And Lacking, You Have To Speak Life Into Yourself And What You Are Looking To Achieve. You Absolutely Must Maintain A Mindset Of Faith And Abundance.
Everything That You Strive For And Need To Be Happy, Healthy, And Successful In This Lifetime Is Already Guaranteed And Coming To You. You Shouldn’t Fight Change Because You Might Very Well Be Fighting The Door That Leads You To Exactly What You Asked For And Exactly What You Need.
I’ve Decided To Make Quite A Few Changes And Undergo A Few Challenges These Next Few Months Going Into And After The New Year. I Am Energized By These Changes And Personal Challenges Because They Encompass The Gems And Lessons I’ve Learned In The Past Few Years.
Turning 30 Is By No Means A Deadline, But My Pre-30 Lightbulb Has Been Going Off. There Are So Many Goals That I Need To Successfully Carry Out Before 30 And I’m Ready To Achieve Them. To Think That This ‘aha’ Moment Was Triggered By A Self Implemented Starbucks Challenge (As Of August 2021, No Starbucks Until Jan 2022). It’s About Discipline For Sure, But Above All Else It’s About Belief And Confidence In Myself.
I Can Complete My Starbucks Challenge. I Can Complete My 4 Month Social Media Hiatus. I Can Complete My Challenge To Read Once Every Day. I Can Complete My Challenge To Write Once A Day And Update My Website. I Can Love More On Myself And Not Concern Myself With Men/Women, Dating, And Relationships. I Can Plan More Solo Trips And Retreats. I Can Travel The World In 2022. I Can Turn XoxoDeej Into An LLC. I Can Do Everything I Envision, Even When It Frightens Me, Because I Have Faith In God/Spirit/The Universe That It’s Already Prepared For Me. Success Is Waiting For Me. I Simply Have To Believe In Myself And Go Get It. My Peace And Tranquility And Success And Security Was Always Waiting For Me On The Other Side Of Fear, Doubts, Temptation, And A Lack Of Discipline. I’m Ready To Go Collect My Packages.
