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Hadarian Starseeds Are Said To Have A Very Special, Very Specific Purpose In This World And This Lifetime. Now, I Won’t Tell You Exactly What Hadarian’s Are And Where We Come From (Because Google Ladies & Gents Lol). But, I Will Tell You That Our Purposes On This Earth Usually Tie Into Providing And Being The Catalysts For Healing And Nurturing. Those People Who Simply Want To Show Others That Good, Genuine People With No Ulterior Motives Still Exist In This World? That’s Us.
I’ve Already Accepted That Two Of My Purposes In Life Are To Create And To Heal. How I’ll Fulfill Those Purposes...I Imagine In A Myriad Of Ways. As A Healer And Nurturer, My Spirit, Energy, And Aura Reflect As So. It Is Extremely Easy To Turn That Loving And Nurturing Spirit Outwards And Into The World, But Not So Much Inward. I Believe That’s The One True Caveat Of Having This Old Spirit. I Am An Empath And My Feelings Of Love And Appreciation And Affection Often Come From My Small Circle...My Best Friends Who Are My Soulmates. As Different And Colorful As We Are, We Are All Of Similar Souls, Hearts, And Minds.
Oftentimes, I’m Guilty Of Depleting My Spiritual And Love Supply For Others. More Times Than I’d Like To Admit And So Often That It Can Be Deemed Toxic. My Choices, Led By My Love, Often Lead Me Into Unhealthy Relationships And Friendships. So, I Am Tasked With Learning About And Actively Enforcing Healthy Boundaries. I Am Walking Away From Anything And Anyone That No Longer Serves Me...Anything That Is Perfectly Fine With Draining Me Of All I Have And Caring Not To Replenish. I Acknowledge That It Is Easy For Me To Lose Myself In Relationships Because Of A Misplaced Willingness To Help And Heal. I Receive Joy From My Impact On People And The Relationships I Build. There’s No Harm In That. It Just Simply Means That I Have To Work A Little Harder At Maintaining Healthy Boundaries And Saying ‘nah.’ In This Last Year Of My 20’s, A Major Lesson That I’m Walking Into 30 With Is That My Love Needs To Flow Deeper And Steadily When Turned Inwards. It’s Essential To My Human Experience To Achieve That Level Of Discipline And Self Love.
From A More Worldly And Psychological Perspective, I Am Actively Healing Childhood Traumas/Abandonment Issues/Parental Issues/Self Acceptance. These Things Cause Me To Unhealthily Cling To Emotions, Things, And People At The 1st Sign Of Happiness Or Acceptance. I Poured Heavily Into People And Projects Because I Believed That The More I Poured And The Tighter I Held On And Harder I Fought, The Longer They’d Stay. The Real T Is That I Was Holding Onto Everything I Should’ve Easily Walked Away From. But, I Believed That If I Tried Harder, I Wouldn’t Fail. I’ve Learned That Sometimes “Failure” Is Healthy. Being Able To Walk Away And Fail At Something That Was Only Going To Hurt Or Drain You Is A Good Thing. Discernment And Boundaries Isn’t Failure. The True Failure Is Keeping Around That Which Is Only Going To Poison You In The End.
Even If I Did Manage To Heal And Nurture, I Had Already Sustained Heavy Casualties To My Spirit. The Battles Weren’t Worth Winning The War. When You Continuously Place Yourself In Those Situations, You Are Making Spiritual And Karmic Agreements With Negativity And Suffering. You Are Telling God/Spirit/The Universe That You Are Content With And Continuously Choosing Chaos And Suffering. We Were Not Put Onto This Earth To Constantly Suffer Throughout Life. You Do Not Have To Choose Martyrdom. Not Me, Not Anymore. Yes, I Am A Healer. Yes, I Am A Nurturer. Yes, I Have A Good Heart. Yes, I Am A Once In A Lifetime Experience, A Rarity. And I Yes, I Deserve That Same Experience. Both From Myself And Those Deserving Of Being In My Life.
