I Am Confident

This Is One Of My Daily Affirmations…it Has To Be. I’ve Always Struggled With Confidence, Self-Esteem, And Body Image. My Confidence Has Never Been Consistent, It Has Always Ebbed And Flowed. It Was Non Existent When I Was A Little Girl All The Way Through My Teens, But It’s Consistently Fluctuated Ever Since My Junior Year Of Undergrad. 2020-2021 Found Me At The Most I’ve Been Confident In My Entire Life. Ever Y'all. In One Of The Most Life Changing/Life Altering Years To Date, I Was Able To Step In Front Of A Camera And Put Myself Out There For The World To See And To Judge. 

“It’s Okay To Make Mistakes. It’s Okay To Fall Down. Get Up, Look Sickening…& Make Them EAT IT!” ~ Latrice Royale

2021 Was A Continuation Of That Momentum. I Almost Allowed A Breakup To Desecrate My Confidence, But I Fought Tooth And Nail And Managed To Hold On To It. I Talk Alot About Internal Validation Because It Is Essential To The Soul. But, I’m Still Human, After All. I Still Operate Within My Ego At Times, And External Validation From Time To Time Is Kinda Necessary. Being Complimented The Last Few Years On My Beauty, Personality, Grace, Talent, Spirit, And Friendship Has Also Been Essential To Maintaining My Confidence. 

In The Last Few Years Of My 20’s, I Felt The Most Confident While Healing And Planning Out Goals For 2022. Whenever I’ve Daydreamed About Law School, Xoxodeej, LLC Publishing A Book, Black Girls Speaks, And Reviving Café Hours, My Confidence Has Shot Through The Roof. This Has Been The Best Feeling And The Best Version Of My Confidence. It’s Rooted In My Dreams, My Talents, And My Work Ethic. Being Engaged Was Nice, Being Pursued By People Who See Me For Who I Really Am Is Even Better. But There’s Been Nothing Like The Beauty And Ability I’ve Grown To See In Myself.