Are You Stuck...Or Simply Being Still?
“The First & Greatest Victory is to Conquer Self.”
~Plato
Late Last Night A Good Friend And I Were Having Our Weekly, Goofy Ass Phone Session As We Usually Do. He’s A Scorpio And I’m A Taurus...So Essentially, We’re Opposites Yet One In The Same. The Topic Got Onto Social Media, More Specifically A Facebook Status Challenge Where You Tell The Person What’s Wrong With Their Sign. So As I Began To Read, Henny, Read These Scorpios For Filth, My Friend Snarkily/Jokingly Replied, “Every Taurus That I’ve Met Before You Was Just Retarded...Retarded Ass Boulders...Ya’ll Earth Signs Right?...Retarded Ass Rocks, Pebbles, And Boulders.”
Listen Ya’ll….It Was The ‘Retarded Ass Boulders’ For Me! After 5 Minutes Of Crying Laughing, I Asked Him Why We Were Retarded. Of Course, He Mentioned That Taurus’ Are Stubborn And Often Appear Stuck. To Which I Replied, “You’re Right! Taurus’ Are Extremely Stubborn And Can Become Stuck In Our Ways. However, There’s A Difference Between Being Stuck And Being Still.”
Ya’ll Know What He Said, Right?
“...Stfu Deej.” *Insert Crying Laughing Emoji* I Guess I Was Being Too Real For Him.
Anywho, After A Few More Hours Of Our Antics And Prepping For Bed, I Got To Thinking About How We Really Are Out Here Not Knowing The Difference Between Being Stuck And Being Still. I Used To Be One Of These People. I Used To Think That Unfortunate Or Unplanned Happenings Caused Me To Be Stuck. I Used To Think That The Pain And Inner Turmoil That I Was Navigating Had Me Stuck. It Wasn’t Until I Began To Turn Inside Myself And Learned To Navigate My Thoughts, Emotions, Spirituality And Intuition That I Realized That I Wasn’t Stuck...I Was Just Incapable Of And Afraid Of Being Still.
There’s A Saying That People Who Are Always On The Move And Who Are Always Busy And Going From Place To Place Are Lost Or Running Away From Something. Whether That Be The Past, Themselves, Their Thoughts, Their Trauma, Their Demons. Stillness Is Often Regarded In The Same Way As Darkness...Something To Run From And Avoid Rather Than Embrace. We Tell People All The Time That They Have To Learn To Block Out The Noise In Order To Ascend...But What Do You Do When You Are The Noise? Meditation Is A Spiritual Healing Practice That Helps You To Achieve These Peace. But...You Have To Be Still. How Can You Block Out The World & Attain Peace When You’re Afraid To Be Still And Sit With Yourself?
As I Said Before, My Scorpio Friend And I Are One In The Same. We Feel Things Extremely Deeply, We’re Ultra Sensitive And Empathetic To The Feelings And Emotions Of Others And Ourselves. Feelings And Thoughts For Us Run As Deep As The Ocean And Sometimes Can Cause Us To Think And Feel Too Much At Once. So Being Still Is Scary As Fuck. It’s Much Easier To Be Busy All Day Or To Pour Ourselves Into Our Passions. It’s Easier To Focus On The Fun Or To Randomly Hit The Road And Leave The World Behind. It’s Easier To Focus On The Trauma, Drama, And Shortcomings Of Others. It’s Easier To Drink, Smoke, And Sex The Pain And Frustration Away...Yup, I’ve Been There, Too.
However, It’s Not Until You Really Begin To Sit In Everything That You Go From Feeling Stuck (Lost) To Seeing And Understanding Things That You May Have Not Been Seeing Or Even Paying Attention To Before. There Is Peace, Clarity, & Manifestations In Stillness.
The Definition Of Insanity Is Repeating The Same Thoughts, Actions, And Choices Over And Over Again Expecting Different Results. Stop Choosing Insanity And Conquer That Fear Of Sitting With Yourself. It Won’t Be Easy, Nor Will It Be Pretty. I Can’t Tell Ya’ll How Many Days And Nights I’ve Spent Sitting In The Middle Of My Living Room Floor, Talking To Myself, Writing To Myself, Balling My Eyes Out (Probably Scaring Thee Fuck Out Of My Neighbors) Because I Was Tired Of Feeling Stuck And Finally Decided To Be Still And Sit In Front Of Myself. But You’ll Be Pleasantly Surprised By All You Can Achieve And Manifest Once You Sit Inside Yourself. Peace Be Still...Peace Is Still.
