Chasing The Wind

Written To The Vibes of Tinashe’s Aquarius Album

Sometimes I Feel Like I’m Alone…But There You Are…I’ll Stay Real Close To You..

I’ve Frequently Struggled With Feelings That I Don’t Belong To This World...To This Lifetime. Most Times I Feel As Though I’m Chasing The Wind. It’s Like, I’m Chasing This Ideal & This Vision & This Life That I’m Never Meant to Catch. Meeting Those Who Make Up My Core Have Helped to Slightly Quell These Feelings. I’ve Met The People Who I Feel It Was Destined For Me To Meet, Build, & Maintain Bonds With. However, Freedom, Happiness, & Intimate Love Always Feels on the Wind. 

Granted, There Are Times When the Storm Subsides & I’ve, Momentarily, Been Able to Ride The Wind. However, the Ride is Over As Quickly As It Started. Maybe It’s Just My Abandonment Issues Manifesting. Maybe It’s My Overwhelming Fear That Everything I Come To Love Is Going to Leave Me. 

Imagine Floating...Being Suspended in the Water & the Moment You Allow Yourself to Relax...to Float...You Sink. A Perpetual Cycle of Floating & Sinking. 

Yeah...I’m Gonna Go With Trust & Abandonment Issues For $1000, Alex. I Don’t Even Trust Myself to Not Leave Me…

Maybe That’s The Real Fear...That at the End of the Day...I’m The Reason it all Crumbles & Falls Apart. That At The End of the Day...I’m The Reason the Wind Always Picks Back Up.